I am in a place where I want to write about a hundred different things and they are all stuck in the middle of my chest. I fear they will stay there until they dissipate and I’ll never find them again. But I want to write. I need to write. It’s been too long since I really have, I think.
I am ok with a good ebb and flow. We all need them. But for someone who so clearly needs the words to flow to get through life, this ebb thing is weird. So feel free to read or not read as this is really just a brain drain to try and get through this.
My life is so good right now it scares me.
I had a great long conversation with my mom this morning. It’s been a while since we just chatted for the fun of it and the timing couldn’t have been better. I am in a stage of richness and I don’t mean money. I just mean my life is full. While we do keep busy that isn’t it. It’s the fact that what we are is rich in love and life. Our boys are full of energy and fun and questions that have my searching my own soul for answers. We are praying and hoping and planning. We are learning about things together and dreaming about the future.
I am going to Disney World. TWICE! In just 2 weeks, I will be running a total of 19.3 miles in two days at the Glass Slipper Challenge. I am driving down with a friend and it will be a total adventure! I am both excited and terrified at the fact that I am really doing this. Like for real!
Next month, I will be speaking on a panel with two other Bloggers at the Type-A-Parent Bootcamp at Walt Disney World. It seems fitting that my very first speaking gig would combine my favorite blogging conference with my favorite destination! I am beyond honored to have been given this opportunity and even though it will be a quick Friday-Sunday trip, I am ready for every single minute. Our topic is Finding Your Purpose and Creating a Mission Statement. You can follow along during conference day (March 29th) on Twitter with the hashtag #TypeaWDW.
photo by Janice Croze
Finally, I am going to Disneyland! WHAT? This week, the magic makers at the Disney Social Media Moms Celebration headquarters extended invitations for this year’s amazing conference, hosted for the first time at the Disneyland Resort in Anaheim, CA. Needless to say, when I opened my email at 7:30pm on Monday night, I was so incredibly thrilled to be invited I didn’t know what to do. Jerry and I will be taking this trip without the kids for some much needed time to connect and get some R&R. Although, I don’t know how much rest we will get with all the awesome events the Disney Social Media team has planned! We have only been to California once and it was on our honeymoon. To say we are excited would be a major understatement! The hashtag #DisneySMMoms is already buzzing with excitement for this April trip!
All of a sudden, we have a lot of trips planned, also including a beach weekend WITH the kids here in NC. I’m renaming 2014 – the year of trips! To be honest, it makes me feel a little weird. Like, if I were in therapy right now (which I won’t be for another month so you get a post instead) I would say I don’t feel like I deserve all of these great things; that it’s too much goodness. And while there are moments when I do feel that way, I have to tell myself to knock it off. Because for one thing, no one deserves goodness. If and when we happen to be the recipients of something wonderful be it big or small, we should respond with humility and gratitude. That is what I am trying to do with all of this richness, this cake, this amazing icing. I am grateful. I am full. I am ready to celebrate and live my life like I never have before because who knows if I will ever have another chance like this?
I want the boys to see us work hard. But they also need to watch us enjoy life and live and love and give of ourselves. This season is shaping up to be quite a thing. Oscar starts Kindergarten in the fall, which will propel us into totally uncharted territory. Calvin will be three this summer and I feel like we are really turning a corner as a family. We are growing up together. I am loving each of my “boys” (Jerry included) more and more each day.
I daresay I’m having a lot of fun in the process.