So this week has been odd for me. I can’t say that it has been a bad week necessarily. It’s just been one of those weeks where I didn’t really feel like myself. Jerry has had to work a lot and had several music practices after having been gone over the weekend. In fact, he is currently at work again and has been since 4:3oam working on internet stuff that has to happen when the rest of us are sleeping. The moments we HAVE had together have been really nice, but everything just feels off in the meantime.
Last weekend I made some really great progress on the book and then my inspiration went right out the window. I think the schedule changes have a lot to do with that. Also, I am not in a hurry to write so I am just going with the flow and jotting things down here and there as they come. I imagine that one day I will set some kind of time line for myself because I do work better with goals. But today is not that day. I am also still in the infant stages of just what this book will be about. I have a lot that I want to and COULD write about, but I want it to be relevant and interesting and not just a laundry list of my life. I’ve never done anything like this before, other than blogging so it’s a really interesting process. And from the research I have done about writing (non-fiction in particular), there really isn’t a correct way to go about it. It’s all very organic, which is part of the appeal for me at least. I am trying not to allow myself to think even one or two steps ahead for now. And if you know me, it will be very difficult! But I am trying to think of it like knitting. When I start a knitting project, I NEVER understand the directions. I read through them once to see what I need for supplies and then I take it one line at a time. It doesn’t matter that line 7 makes no sense. It will by the time I am done with line 6 and so on. I think this book will take shape in the same way.
Another reason I am really excited about the book is that I am really able to think. There is NOTHING I would rather do than love and care for Oscar, but since I am not working outside the home, I must have something to sink my intellect into. I don’t want to just stagnate and quote the same facts over and over. I have always been a sponge and I don’t see that ever stopping. Learning new things keeps me going. I get excited and rejuvenated with a new skill. The downside of this is that I am tempted to jump from thing to thing without really getting proficient. A jack of all trades but a master of none….I can see that as good or bad depending on the day. With the book, my hope is that I will be writing about enough different things to keep my interest, all the while tying it together to keep yours. We’ll see.