I have 10 days to go, a slowly shrinking list and no concept of urgency whatsoever. A friend asked me today, so are you stressed?? Excited??? Yesterday I could have answered this, today I feel numb. I had THE hardest time getting out of bed this morning. It’s not a lack of motivation at this point, or even stress. I think it is flat out bewilderment.
obfuscation, puzzlement, befuddlement, mystification, bafflement, bemusement
confusion resulting from failure to understand
Yep! That pretty much sums it up! I am rounding the corner of stress and feeling overwhelmed to the path of “wedding week”. Yet, i don’t know how I am supposed to feel during this time! I am so completely happy and ready to be married! I know that once we get a few more annoying chores out of the way (read: packing/moving the rest of Jerry’s stuff) I will have a sense of relief. I think.
I had dinner with some friends last night and I was talking about how humbling it is to have so many people ‘on my side’. We could NEVER pull this wedding off without all of our friends! And yet, I have felt so guilty asking for help! I am a vortex of female emotion these days.
Some great advice from a friend: live in the moment on your wedding day. Each moment. That way it won’t be a blur.
A lot of the past few months have been a blur. That’s why I am SO glad I kept this blog! I can’t wait to go back and read it when all is said and done…which of course gets me thinking of how I can get all this into a scrapbook..haha…maybe I can finally use MyPublisher!
So yeah, recap: I am jello.