Like most of the American workforce, I have never been a fan of Mondays. Monday represented the end of fun, a descent back into the drudgery of the 9 to 5. Sure there were times when I enjoyed my job and maybe on those days, I didn’t face the week with so much dread. But they were few and far between as I was searching and digging and scraping away to find my place.
Now that I have been a stay at home (and sometimes work from home) mom for almost five years I am beginning to turn a corner on Mondays. The day itself has come to mean something entirely different. My husband goes to work, my children go to preschool and I am left with my thoughts (and a pile of dishes) for a couple hours. For me, the day has been totally redeemed. As much as I love to spend the weekends with my family, I am starting to see these precious few hours as a real ticket to my sanity for the week.
There is a song we sing in church called Nothing Holding Me Back by Bryan and Katie Torwalt. It’s a really beautiful song of thankfulness for Jesus and what He did (and is doing) for us. It’s a great reminder as a Christian who often struggles with feeling “held back”. I am definitely the type of person who looks to the next thing for completion, for happiness.
If only I could _______, THEN I would be happy/together/able to rest, etc. You get the idea.
What does this have to do with Mondays? I’ll tell you.
Because I believe Jesus is here and he cares about me and my life. He cares about yours too so you what you see or need may be totally different. In my recent journey of looking for the thankful moments, I am starting to see more around me. Maybe things haven’t changed that much. Or maybe I am just seeing them differently, as in the case with Mondays.
“Jesus, you make all things new” is the lyric that keeps playing in my head today. He makes ALL things new. Even my dreaded old Mondays. Something so small and silly. Something that wasn’t even on my radar as something to pray for change. Something too insignificant to matter to a big God with a big world to care for.
But He does care. He cares for the little things.
He cares for the big things too. I don’t have answers for the hard questions today. I still don’t know why pain is allowed and hardship seems to get harder. I don’t think we can earn God’s favor or that He loves anyone more than another.
What I do know is that when I am able to see something beautiful, something that matters to me specifically, I want to respond with thanks. I want to let my heart fill with gratitude and humility. I want to sing the rest of the song.
Thank You for the way You always love me
Now I get to love You in return