So lately I have felt all out of whack…it seems like I get my act together in one area, and the rest of my life goes crazy! This is evidenced by the many growing piles of “I’ll get to that later” in my apartment, the diet coke cans in my car and the endless stack of laundry I have to do. The good news is, I am moving to a new apartment next week so now it’s time for an overhaul! Granted, I am only moving around the corner, but why move a bunch of stuff I will probably get rid of anyway? It just doesn’t make sense. Another frustration I am dealinbg with (like every other woman in America no doubt) is my lifelong inability to get in shape and really STAY in shape. I don’t mean being a certain size (although part of it) I mean being healthy and IN shape. I’ve been reading a lot and have started eating healthier on the whole, but not consistently. And it can be very easy to be hard on myself, which in turn makes me just want to buy a magazine and hibernate for 3 days. But, these are 28 years of patterns that I am trying to break. And I only have til I am 30 to do it!!! (my own goal) So it’s about baby steps….
The thing about baby steps that I don’t like is that you are taking MANY more steps to get somewhere. Instead of meaningful sweeping strides. I guess that’s part of it and I am ok with that, but the trick is not to get discouraged in the meantime. It’s interesting to talk with Jerry about all of these things because they are really MY goals and he is supportive but cautious which is totally understandable. I really appreciate the talks we have had and are having about it because he knows how important it is to me, and that makes it important to him. All in all, I guess that even though I have felt out of control lately, I have a really great support system and that feels great.