Things are going well over at the Updyke Ranch. I don’t know if I put this in the blog but I have officially quit my job and won’t be returning back to work! I was supposed to go back April 6th. I am SO happy to be a stay at home mom for real! It’s something I have looked forward to all my life. I am of course learning that it isn’t exactly what I thought it would be, but who are we kidding? Nothing is what we think it will be! I am trying to learn whatever I can from each day and move forward with optimism. My Grandma always said to make the best of it! Now that can sound like it’s bad, but making the best of “it” means make bad better and good, great! That is how I want to live each day.
Last night some friends and I had a ladies night out. It was SO great to just hang out with good friends and eat, have a glass of wine and chill. When I got home, Jerry had the baby sweetly sleeping in his crib and I just went in to feed him and put him back to bed. He didn’t even wake up really! Then I went to bed myself quite satisfied with my lovely evening and thankful for a wonderful hubby who is a great daddy too!
This week I feel like I have turned a corner. Oscar has been sleeping in his crib at night but mostly in his swing for naps. I let this continue through last week because we have had a lot going on and family in town so I didn’t want to disrupt him too much. But, this week is relatively open so we decided it was time to be consistent. I have been putting Oscar down in his crib for every nap that we are home. He is starting each nap in the crib. Then if he wakes and I can’t get him settled, I will move him to the swing. So far, he has done really great! Many of his naps are shorter, which I expected because he went from movement to being still. But, yesterday he took a 2 hour nap with no waking and this morning he slept for 1.5 hours! I am really excited that he seems to be doing well in there. Now that we have the mattress wedge, he isn’t laying flat and that helps a lot. Jerry asked me to write down everything that I do and what his cues are so he would have a handle on last night. I thought oh gosh, I am not sure what they are. Then I started thinking and typing and all of a sudden I realized that I DO know what they are and I am actually starting to know my baby! That was a really cool thing and I think it helped me to be more confident about our decisions.
Of course it’s always 1 step forward and 2 steps back. Today, Oscar woke at 5am to eat so I fed him and then he woke again 1 hour later as if he was starving! So I fed him again and he ate for almost an hour! He took a 45 minute nap and woke up crying and wouldn’t settle so I tried to feed him again, only this time he wasn’t hungry. So I wrapped him up and calmed him down and he went back to sleep for another hour and a half. He was just so exhausted. I wonder why he was so hungry this morning…..always something to figure out! But each time he goes to sleep, we do the same thing, a song and a prayer. I think the consistency is really helping him. It’s only been a few days but I can already see the progress.
It’s so frustrating to learn new things. But coming through the difficult challenges is SO rewarding! Each day I feel a little bit more confident and a little bit more like myself. Only now, I have a new layer!