Today we found out that our pregnancy didn’t make it. We had our followup ultrasound and while the baby had grown some, at some point, the growth stopped. The heartbeat was also noticeably absent.
I knew immediately when I saw the baby that there was no heartbeat. The flashing was so obvious last time and the Midwife’s silence was all too clear. They brought in the Doctor to confirm and the rest is details.
We’re laying low today and just absorbing the new facts as we know them. We are sad but also trusting that the right time will come for us to grow our family.
I am just trying to forget it all happened. Is that weird? Like, I just don’t want to think about it. I know these things happen, so much more often than we realize and I don’t want to be sad. Of course it IS sad, but I just can’t dwell on it.I don’t think I am in denial. I mean I am very clear on what is going on. I just want to keep on living.
So if you see me and I am acting normal, or you wonder why my tweets are insignificant, just know that I am coping. I am focusing on the good, and the lovely, and the pure…and probably some of the silly and mindless.
We so appreciate your support and your prayers and know that we have an awesome community cheering us on.We love you guys.
And we love you Tiny….wherever you are.