Last night, Jerry and I hosted our last community group at the house. The group will go on, led by the very capable Joe and Jessica and hosted at Jon and Jen’s house just around the corner. The transition couldn’t be smoother and we are so thankful that they have been called to do the next leg of leadership for this group! We will still attend until the baby comes and then as soon as we can after he is here.
This morning I feel reality striking. 2009 is a year of change. I think it is all good change for us (so far) and I remain excited and optimistic. However, there is always a sense of anxiety that comes – and goes- with change. And with change there is always reflection.
When Taylor asked us to branch off of his group in 2007 we weren’t even married yet! Actually, I don’t even think we were engaged. We talked and prayed about it and decided we were in. It was a new experience for me, leading a bible study with my soon to be husband, and for Jerry who had never done anything like this. I think it really helped us grow in our faith in Jesus and also our commitment to our church and to each other. We didn’t want to be a group that caused dissension, but one that allowed honest discussion (even negative) without judgment. From that, our group has grown and we have some of our best friends looking out for us physically and spiritually on a daily basis. That is an amazing blessing. We are really a part of a community! The group belongs to God and we all know it. I doubt I could list all the ways we have blessed each other by meeting needs and serving – and we have certainly been blessed by everyone! It has been a great run, and we are so at peace in passing the baton.
In other ways, the reality of no longer leading brings up questions of, “What could I have done differently? Better?” Where did my heart never change? Why do I still struggle in certain areas after all this time?” These are thoughts on my heart this morning. I don’t want to fall into the trap of happy happy all the time and walk around with blinders on to my sin and areas that need improving. Right now I think we have a real chance to take some time and really get our hearts and minds focused on the tasks ahead (baby) as well as where God is in all of this. We must consciously keep our priorities straight. For us, they are:
1) Our Relationship with God
2) Our Marriage
3) Our Family
4) Our Jobs/responsibilities
5) Our Community
I have never felt closer to my husband than I do right now. But it’s a different kind of close. It’s still giddy and excited at times, but now there is a knowing. We are growing up, growing together and growing in our marriage. I think 2009 will be a great year but probably not the easiest year. I look forward to rolling up my sleeves alongside my beloved and getting to work on what we are called to do. I am excited to see how God will grow us in the new community group transition. I am so truly thankful for all of the support that the group has given us and continues to give. I believe that great things are in store for all of us and I am looking forward to the next season. Thank you to everyone who made the time at our house so special!