The amount of joy I get from the most mundane things of married life is positively silly. I am sure my poor husband is getting project whiplash the way I jump from one thing to another. After a weekend of soul-searching I finally realized that my need to “nest” comes from my honest desire to build into our home, our relationship and our marriage. I associate images of my home life with happiness and success. I am not sure if this is entirely reasonable, but it makes sense to me.
For instance, being organized is a big part of who I want to be. I feel like if I can get my house under control, somehow everything else will fall into place. Also, I am turning into my mother. I don’t really see this as a bad thing. It’s just interesting to observe. I never really understood why the candles changed with the seasons, but now that the weather is turning, I can’t wait to get my hands on some cinnamon and pumpkin spiced air fresheners. I put a fall decoration on the door and instantly felt more at home and at ease. I suppose part of it is having a home to do these things in, and also nostalgia of a happy childhood.
Jerry and I had a conversation about my need (or desire) to constantly dream about the house. What changes would I make if I could, where should I hang pictures, how can we spice things up etc. He didn’t want me to be unhappy with what we have. I however, don’t see it as being unhappy, it’s just a way for me to be creative with my surroundings and make a warm and cozy home for my family. I mentioned this to mom and she laughed and told me of the years of this same conversation she has had with my dad. She also said that we get it from my Grammy, who my mom remembers, would sit in her farmhouse kitchen in the 1950s with a paper and pencil sketching out how she would like to change it if she ever had the chance! So thanks Grammy, for paving the creative way 🙂
We painted the front door red on Saturday and it looks great! Last night, Jerry put up new house numbers that will actually be legible from the street and we finally made some progress in the guest room. It’s a fun transition that we are going through together. We make a great team and I am so thankful!