When I’m afraid, I will trust in You
Whose words I praise, God I trust in You
I will trust in You
what is this fear to me? You are reality
as everything falls, you’re what is true
when I’m afraid, I will trust in You
my soul is tired, still i trust in you
covered with shame, in your eyes i’m new
your wounds have made me new
and even when the dark, draws me back into fear
I’ll call to the Son, for he came near
through Jesus Christ, God is here, You are here.
The 2 Matts in the V21 band wrote this song. I wish you could hear it. There are some really great piano parts. Anyway, today it just really touched me. I am starting to realize that I *can* trust in God. I know I talk about it but I don’t know that I am very good at doing it. But, then again, I guess that is what learning to trust is all about.
I have had a hard time trying to decide how Jon and I can stay in eachother’s lives without continually hurting eachother. We take turns pushing eachother away, only to take it back almost immediately. We used to be such good friends. I know we both want that again, but emotions seem to keep getting in my way at least. I don’t know about him. So instead of trusting him or myself, I am just going to trust in God. I believe that He knows what is best for me and for Jon and that is good enough for me. And I can’t say enough that I am learning good things and I want to be here. Sometimes life is hard, but that doesn’t have to be a negative thing. Preparation for anything worthwhile in life is hard, but the benefits always outweigh the effort. And I belive our friendship is worth the effort.
That is what I learned today.