I have to come clean. I am a card-carrying “I would never do that-er“. All my life I had solutions to all the problems I didn’t face and all the issues that I didn’t really understand. I mean, it just seemed so simple! Of course, we all know that as soon as we are faced with one of these issues, all our ideas go out the window to be replaced by a decidedly NOT simple amalgamation of solutions.
And so, as with so many other times in my life, I am eating my words.
I never understood people that would lament the missed moments with the second child. Of course it makes sense, two kids are harder than one. But I just couldn’t get how it was SO hard to mark those milestones and document the special moments.
And now, I am pregnant with the second child and I find myself wondering all kinds of things that I KNEW backwards and forward with Oscar. Sometimes entire days go by before I have to stop and think, oh when did I feel the baby move? That was today right? What am I supposed to be eating again? And it goes on and on.
At this stage of my pregnancy with Oscar, I had already purchased his bedding. And now? I can barely open the door to the would-be nursery because of all the NON-nursery items in there. I haven’t thought of names. I haven’t submitted my hospital registration forms (my Dr. requested that I do it at 8 weeks). I haven’t really done much of anything except binge on bagels and try to keep Oscar happy.
Second child, let this be the first of many apologies. I will try my hardest to at least get a picture of you on your birthday.