And do you have just one? For me, the answer to the latter is no. And I would bet money that’s the answer for most people. As for when you find it, I think you are always finding it. In my life, I have had many callings for many seasons, each building upon the last. Why do people feel the need to assign labels to others based on today’s calling? I’ve been mulling over my “life story” the past few days and thinking about the many roads that led me to where I am. To this life. I never could have imagined that they would have led me here, yet here I am.
Hindsight, in my case, is NOT 20/20. I still don’t know why I had to go through certain things or why I made the choices I did. But I know that I am glad I am here and if there was no other way to go about it, then I am thankful. But it hasn’t always been this way.
Historically, I have had a really hard time living in the present and being content with my life. I have always had a tugging or a feeling that something just wasn’t right. So, now that my life feels right, does that mean I have arrived? Definitely not. It just gives me pause to consider the past 31 years and thank God for his provision and mercy. We all have a story to tell. Isn’t that so cheesy? But so important. Live in the moment, yes, but don’t forget how you got there. And don’t fall into the temptation of re-writing your personal history. Embrace it for what it is and learn learn learn!
I think the temptation to label people as Mom, Businesswoman, Teacher, Single, Married, based on what you see in them today, is to do them a great disservice. Yes women are these things but that is not all they are. Further that is not all they HAVE been. Right now, my labels are Wife, Mom, Home Manager, Friend, Sister, Daughter, Blogger. But in the past they have been, Divorce’, Student, Young Professional, Singer, Musician, Traveler, and the list goes on. I wouldn’t be the labels I am today without having built upon the labels I was yesterday. And tomorrows’ labels will build on these even more.
It seems that layers are a recurring theme in my life right now and I hope to delve into it further. Maybe even take a look back at some of these old layers. Just look at my facebook friends and you will find people who know COMPLETELY different versions of me based on when we met. I bet yours is the same way. But it’s still just me, warts and all. I wonder what I will be next.